Sometimes, it's really really annoying when people can't see the good you're doing (and for whatever reason you just can't tell them), and then they assume you're just doing nothing and wasting your life.

But hey, come Judgment day, when all the secret things will be revealed, they'll be like, "Oh.  I guess you really weren't wasting your life.  Oops."

*sigh*

Well, whatever, I don't need to defend myself.  The Lord will do that for me.  Eventually.  If not now, then later.  But He for sure will give me what I deserve.

Both Moses and Paul said very interesting things in Exodus 32:31–32 and Romans 9:1–3.  Goes something along the lines of "I wish I myself could go to hell for the sake of my people."  And I think I now get what they meant.

I love my God so much more than I love any other person.  Even so, I would choose to be forever separated from my Lord, my greatest love for the sake of someone else.  And this does not mean that I love that person more than I love my God.  But I simply cannot bear the thought of that person being separated from the Lord.  If it were up to me, and it was between me and them, I would take a hold of them and hurl them into heaven's gates, though they may not realize what it is that they just have gained, and as I watch the gates close, I would fully realize what I have lost, and have it no other way.

Did not Jesus endure hell, the separation from the Father, that we may obtain His rewards?  Shall not we be willing to do the same?

My soul cries out for the return of the Lord.  Come, Lord Jesus, come, that I may be clothed with life, that I may see Your reign, that I may drink fully of Your glory.  But I plead, o Lord, that you delay you return a little longer, for my work is not finished, and there are people who have yet to hear Your name, and to these must I go, lest they be crushed in Your return.

Somehow I think the fact that my first relationship is a long-distance one was the best thing that could've happened to me this summer.  There's just something about an LDR that forces communication, and lots of it.  Never before did I understand the love between a man and a woman.

On a related note, it is simply self-deception to think that I can care for someone else more than God cares for that person.