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Just can't see it

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 00:36:27 GMT

Sometimes, it's really really annoying when people can't see the good you're doing (and for whatever reason you just can't tell them), and then they assume you're just doing nothing and wasting your life.

But hey, come Judgment day, when all the secret things will be revealed, they'll be like, "Oh. I guess you really weren't wasting your life. Oops."

*sigh*

Well, whatever, I don't need to defend myself. The Lord will do that for me. Eventually. If not now, then later. But He for sure will give me what I deserve.

This is an ANGRY rant

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 17:20:07 GMT

An open letter to Christians:

I no longer believe in sanctification (or rather, what has now become the commonly accepted meaning of that term). You're not saved so that you could be holy. The holiness that comes from the imputation of righteousness already comes with the forgiveness of sins. You're saved so that you could love people.

Please condemn me as a hippie antinomian heretic now, okay? Thanks.

P.S: You're the kind of people who only believe that Jesus was sinless because that's what you've been told. If anyone came close to even living the way He did now, you'd condemn them as a glutton, a drunkard, a sinner, or demon-possessed.

Conflicted

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 18:41:41 GMT

Both Moses and Paul said very interesting things in Exodus 32:31–32 and Romans 9:1–3. Goes something along the lines of "I wish I myself could go to hell for the sake of my people." And I think I now get what they meant.

I love my God so much more than I love any other person. Even so, I would choose to be forever separated from my Lord, my greatest love for the sake of someone else. And this does not mean that I love that person more than I love my God. But I simply cannot bear the thought of that person being separated from the Lord. If it were up to me, and it was between me and them, I would take a hold of them and hurl them into heaven's gates, though they may not realize what it is that they just have gained, and as I watch the gates close, I would fully realize what I have lost, and have it no other way.

Did not Jesus endure hell, the separation from the Father, that we may obtain His rewards? Shall not we be willing to do the same?

My soul cries out for the return of the Lord. Come, Lord Jesus, come, that I may be clothed with life, that I may see Your reign, that I may drink fully of Your glory. But I plead, o Lord, that you delay you return a little longer, for my work is not finished, and there are people who have yet to hear Your name, and to these must I go, lest they be crushed in Your return.

So Be It

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 13:43:58 GMT

"Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. And a person’s enemies will be those of his own household. Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it."

—Matthew 10:34–39

"I came to cast fire on the earth, and would that it were already kindled! I have a baptism to be baptized with, and how great is my distress until it is accomplished! Do you think that I have come to give peace on earth? No, I tell you, but rather division. For from now on in one house there will be five divided, three against two and two against three. They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against her daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law."

—Luke 12:49–53

Costs that I can't help paying.

Less Than Three

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 14:39:15 GMT

Somehow I think the fact that my first relationship is a long-distance one was the best thing that could've happened to me this summer. There's just something about an LDR that forces communication, and lots of it. Never before did I understand the love between a man and a woman.

On a related note, it is simply self-deception to think that I can care for someone else more than God cares for that person.

Two Things

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 17:15:06 GMT

First, you call it "being a Renaissance man." I call it "not knowing what you really want to do."

Second, I keep forgetting that the reason I love anybody is because I love God more than anybody.

What about them?

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 17:09:43 GMT

I hate it when we're drilled at church (in the songs, sermons, interactions, whatever) with how awesome it is to be a Christian without even giving a second thought to all the other people who don't have God.

Talking with Old People

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 00:16:52 GMT

Old people (like my parents) can be kind of depressing.

Life has destroyed their idealism.

I don't want to grow old. >____<

Isn't the world supposed to be beautiful and full of exciting possibilities? Apparently it's only that way when you're young.

Whatever, I'm still gonna try to change the world before reality kicks in.

(I'm looking at the "rating" thing at the bottom of this page. It should be rated "youth only." XP )

:-(

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 19:37:48 GMT

More Christians need to watch documentaries like Zoo (IMDB/Wikipedia).

It reminds me of what happens if you read Romans 1 without reading the next five verses after it.

This Post Does Not Need to Be This Cryptic

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 02:34:58 GMT

There is a fire in my bones.

I thought I was on vacation.

Perhaps I am.

Release.

Maybe I should just be quiet before I get what I wish.

The enemy responds accordingly.

Disrupt the status quo? Who, me?

Maybe he doesn't like to see me fully charged.

I don't shine nearly as much in the light.

If a crisis would come right now, the hardest part would be pretending I'm not excited.

I hope I would soon learn to enjoy being not needed.

Tearing myself into chaos sounds like a niftier idea than it actually is.